WOW THAT WAS FUCKED UP!

Well, my date was supposed to officially start 8 minutes ago.

Yes, I am at home, blogging. I just ordered some take out thai, spicy enough to melt my face off I hope.

I was already at the meeting place, ordered my glass of wine, which was delicious by the way, and my phone rings, its him. He says:

"I'm so sorry, I have to bail tonight, I think my brother is in some kind of trouble, I am really sorry, I can call you later tonight if you want, are you already there?"

"Um, yeah I am already here. You know, thats cool, do what you need to do, call me later then"

"I am so sorry to bail on you and you are already there?!, I feel like such an ass"

"its ok, you know I think my friend is working, so I will just hang out with him, its ok"

There was a few more "I'm sorry" and then we hung up. Then I got really mad. When the doorman asked if I wanted a table I said, "um, I'll just sit at the bar, I am meeting someone, so I will let you know" now I am some pathetic fat girl sitting at a bar drinking ALONE that just got bailed on by a guy she wasn't even so keen on going out with? THATS FUCKING RICH!

To top it all off, I took the day off FOR HIM! So I could get ready for this date and be on time and not rushed. I could have been making hella monies today, but no, instead I decided to take the day off. Fuck that shit. I was wary about taking the day off anyway, I knew it was a mistake. A big fucking mistake.

Granted our first phone conversation wasn't so great, and I was a little preoccupied, but it wasn't horrible. And sure, he may not have just made up some excuse and something was going on with his family, which thats fine and all, but I just don't trust guys enough to not think that that was a lie.

Doesn't change the fact that I felt humiliated while sitting at the bar tonight. Which is what I am most upset about.