I just completed the half way point for my last master's course. Not that I am prepared for the end, I have a lot of work to do to complete this project and I'm having a shit time of finding data for the location I am utilizing, but here we are.
I am beyond exhausted. I stopped doing pretty much everything since department has been on mandatory overtime since the end of October. It has been a very stressful and enraging few months. honestly, the workload is way too much, I am not sure what the fuck they are thinking. They are requiring 10 OT hours every week, which okay, for a couple weeks, I'm not going to like it, but whatever. But months of this? They are out of their fucking minds. Whatever free time I have has gone to preparing meals, light cleaning, rest, and applying to other jobs. I am happy to say that I am currently under records check for two positions at my current employer.
Although I would like to move companies, I did interview with another company the first week of the year and unfortunately did not get the position. I applied for a few other jobs with this company, but now that school has started, I'm only applying internally so I get my tuition reimbursement, and it's too much to job search outside of work, work 50+ hours a week, and get my school work done.
The focus for leaving the company will be on like overbearing LED headlights from a lifted truck behind you at night. You know the feeling.
Anyway, I am off on PTO all this week, thank god. I haven't taken any time off since the beginning of December, and that was just a long weekend. I am going to get a dental cleaning/exam today, hooray. I do like my dentist actually, she is pretty cool and she has a chihuahua mix that will sometimes sit with you while you have work done. I have been pushing out on my bottom teeth constantly lately, and I am noticing I am doing it at night, and my bottom teeth, which were previously straight and close together, have moved out. Not like English Bulldog territory (thank god), but now I'm having problems with my bite and I can't essentially close my jaw to where my teeth fit together. I don't think my front teeth are to blame for that, something has been off for a while.
I have a few things I want to get done while I am off, mostly dedicating more time to schoolwork, but I want to reorganize my pyrex/storage container cupboard, store things I am not using and throw out expired food/personal care items, and take stuff to Goodwill. I bought a cord organizer, so I need to rearrange all the cords at my desk as well. It's a boring, homebody life, but I enjoy it for the most part, except school.
I have been pressuring Miles to buy me out the last few months, although I haven't been nagging. I made it crystal clear the other day that this was happening, and he needed to get on board, or settle with selling the house. He is now making steps to refinance, finally. He told me he didn't do it before because it made him "anxious" okay, not my fucking problem. He was on the phone with his mom and looking at the mortgage account online and I have a suspicion that his parents will pay off the balance of the mortgage for him (and tell him to pay them, which he may or may not do). Then it will be a matter of me simply being off the deed. I am worried about him being able to circumvent selling my portion or interest in the home, but the deed would need to be signed by myself in front of a notary, so this isn't really possible.
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Alright, well, it's now the end of the week and I ended up getting a dental implant. I've needed one for a long time since I still had a baby tooth just hanging in there (hang in there baby), with no adult tooth under it. Luckily no bone graft was needed and the (very attractive) oral surgeon was able to extract my baby tooth and put the screw into my jaw in like 15 minutes. Crazy.
Okay, but also, can we talk about how dirty talk dental is? For fucks sake. I was sitting in the chair with hot oral surgeon talking about the implant and I was like how long will it take for you to put it in? Or like talking about my TMJ and using adjectives like clenching, grinding, hard... Okay, I get that I'm a romance reader, but after I asked about putting it in, I was like, DO NOT GO THERE BRAIN.
Taking my two cats to the vet for a checkup and rabies vaccination was almost $200 (wtf), and I went to the dermatologist this morning and was surprised when the nurse told me to strip to my bra and underwear, like what?? I've been going to this derm for 4 years now, and I've never had to get almost naked. I like to prepare myself if I know this is going to be a no clothing appointment, like IDK, maybe shave my legs at the very least. I know doctors are like "we don't care" bruh, I haven't shaved my legs in like six weeks, and yeah, body hair is normal, but if I knew I'm be depantsing, I would have shaved for my own sake.
Furthermore, I have never had my body so examined, I felt like a fish being tugged around on a cutting board and descaled or something, no secret was left unturned, what the hell!! THAT WAS NOT WHAT I SIGNED UP FOR.
Well, I hope that when I am back at work I have interview requests waiting for me. I know that I will have a meeting with my boss about my paltry merit increase and lackluster bonus. I think I'll do my taxes and then work on some homework, Friday night!
1 comment:
50 hours is too much! You get no work/life balance. I mostly just eat and sit on the bed in front of the TV during the week because I am exhausted. I have been wearing my retainer at night because I have been pushing my two upper front teeth out. It has been worrying me. I hope you find a better position soon and that master's degree gets complete so you can start enjoying life.
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