Never Ends

Blogging hasn't been important to me lately.

Trying to maintain my sanity has, but it's been a struggle lately.  I feel like my list of things to do is never ending, similar to how a lot of people feel, but I don't remember the last time I was able to relax without knowing there was something I had to do, or something I was already doing at the time (ie watching TV while folding towels and waiting to switch out laundry).

Miles literally sits on his ass all fucking day on his days off and plays computer games.  ALL FUCKING DAY.  Sometimes he runs, but most of the time he is one with the couch.  It's infuriating.  I would like to watch TV on the "nice" television.  I say that because mine is very old and meh.  Plus it's in our old bedroom, which I don't feel as comfortable being in there.  Since I'm moving to the Master bedroom on the other side of the house.

Speaking of.  That room is exceptionally hotter than our old shared bedroom.  Miles is too lazy to move, even though he said he would be okay with "whatever" when we discussed it shortly after the breakup.  I was sleeping on an air mattress in the M.B. sweating at night and he was like "I was really cold".  Oh man, the urge to punch someone has never been stronger.  Then he'll turn the thermostat up.  It's already set pretty high (around 74 during the day, and I put to 71 at night).  The A/C is on "his" side of the house, and I'll be on the opposite side.

So there are like 4 good reasons for him to move into the room I'm moving in, but because he is so fucking lazy, he won't.  Anytime I bring it up, it's a no.  I cannot wait for him to move.  I'm scared that I won't have any money to save when he does, but fuck it.  I'll be poor and happy.  I don't care if I have to cancel any extras I have (gym included) and eat beans and rice for a while.  I'll do it.  It will be worth it.

I spoke to our realtor and she sent me comp's in our area.  She said that houses are selling within a month and after paying closing costs and everything else that goes into selling a house, we will walk away with a good chunk of change.  And that's only after a year being here.  That's just including the house as-is when we bought it as well.  It's a buyers market.  We may been renovating the Master Bedroom's attached bath as well, some of the tile is broken or busting at the seems.  Plus, it just sucks.  It's a rinky-dink bathroom that never got used unless it was an emergency.  Now I will be using it pretty much full time.

It's a vintage baby blue tile, and the stand up shower is walled in, so it takes up a lot of space.  I want to rip it down to the studs and make it a glass shower to add space to the small room.  It has great storage as well... I think if we went with a pedestal sink in there instead of a vanity, we could fit a nice tub.  Something to think about.  I'm going to reach out to my Uncle, a retired contractor living in TN to see what he would suggest.  I'm up for taking down all the shit in the bathroom now, I have the strength and the anger/motivation.  However, let's not add more to my plate for the moment.

So, I was planning on leaving, then staying, and now, I don't know.  It would be great to have a "clean break" as our realtor put it.  I could always refinance as well, I just don't want to pay Miles anything.  However, if we did sell, where would I move?  Back to Utah?  Back to San Diego?  It would be a fresh start.  I could go anywhere (that I could afford).  I would love to be back in California, but I can't afford it.  Maybe some areas, that I wouldn't want to live in...

Anyway.  That is a whole other stressful event that I can't even begin to start thinking about because I need to do the following this week (hopefully):

Paint the master bedroom
Install Baseboards
Apply UV cling paper to the windows (already purchased and cut)
Get bed frame down from garage storage
Assemble Bed frame
Find hardware for headboard/footboard
Get box spring down from garage storage loft
Start moving litter box slowly out of the M.B. Closet into new designated area (usually move 1x a day, cat's hate change... Although wonder if I could just move it... I think Waffles would be upset)
Paint nightstand dresser (that's been in the garage for a month now)
Clean bathroom
Make MJ Pain cream (fun activity)

Then the regular shit

Laundry
Grocery shopping
Dishes

If you are asking where Miles comes into all this, maybe doing the baseboards.  He'll help me get the stuff down from the garage, but he is terrible at painting.  We are also doing the windows together, hopefully Monday.  I have a very busy Memorial Day planned.  Gotta get as much of this stuff done because I need my own space.  I have the office, but it's my workplace, so I don't really like to hang out in here.  I do it 40 hours a week.

I also signed up to get my coding certificate, so I have a fuck load of homework to do on top of everything else.  Also, gym, tracking calories, keeping up with my "insurance points" at work (basically work like credit card points, but you earn points through activity, like health quizzes and steps, and they put money in your HSA and you can earn gift cards), I'm trying to reach $200 worth of gift cards by the end of the plan year, June 30.

Just clocked out, gonna hit up the grocery store.  I don't want to adult anymore.  Fucking so over this shit!