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Can't wait to wake up tomorrow and be a whole new me. 

LOL.

Ahh, the lure of a new year.  I do have a few goals, as I just wasn't in the mindset to make any at my birthday, which is normally when I reflect and write goals.  I haven't had any goals this year, well, that's a lie, but I haven't really been able to make attainable goals and set up the follow through. 

Of course my "goals" are normally always centered around weight loss, which is not ideal.  Intentional weight loss does not work, there are many peer reviewed studies regarding this, hell, I am my own study regarding this.  As soon as I stopped working out for 2 hours a day on 1500 calories, surprise, surprise.  So lately I have been reading and trying to focus on intuitive eating, and ditching all diet culture bullshit. 

However, this is hard.  Because the best "diet" or eating style for me and managing PCOS and PMDD symptoms is a high fat/low carbohydrate diet, but then I'm still "in" diet culture instead of just living my life right?  Ugh, I don't know.  So, this is still something I am figuring out. 

In the last few months I've implemented a few new healthy habits, and now that they are pretty much ingrained and just what I do on the daily, it's time to continue to add new things to the mix, and this is going to include getting serious about a gym routine.  This is mostly to improve my mental health, but hopefully will also help me build strength again to deal with managing my chronic pain. 

I would like to get better about planning meals as well.  I feel like I just buy too much at the store and I don't end up using it all that week.  I am usually really good at grocery shopping and cooking, so I don't know where my head is at with this. 

Additionally, closing the kitchen needs to become my norm again.  I like waking up to cleaned off counters and a dish free sink.  This is actually something I've been doing with Miles out of town for the holidays, so it should not be hard to continue this action. 

Also, I did a few "no buy" months this last year, and I really need to continue it.  I have so much shit, so many different types of shampoo, skin care, and face masks.  I am super proud to report that I only have 2 bottles of body lotion!!  One that I keep in my office, and one in the bathroom for post shower.  Although I also have a tub of CeraVe body cream, but that is for very dry weather, and I don't use it that much.  I have a hemp hand cream in my nightstand that will be gone before the weekend, which I am not going to replace.  I will probably just move the CeraVe cream to the nightstand. 

I have my night cream on subscribe and save with Amazon, so I don't really need to think about that.  Oooh and they also have my body lotion on there, just added to my subscriptions, perf. 

Cleaning up my grocery routines/meal planning, and also doing a few more no buy months will certainly help with my financial savings goals.  I make less money that I did in San Diego, but I've managed to save more this last year than ever before.  So, I'm hoping to continue that in 2020.  Also, I want to completely get out of debt, I have 3 credit cards, but only 1 with revolving debt, and if I buckle down and stick to my budget, this should be possible.  Maybe I would be left with like 1/10th of what I owe now at the end of 2020, I would be okay with that.

Additionally, I don't usually celebrate my wins, but I need to.  I paid off one of my credit cards this last year, and also finished school---without student debt.  Both of things were big deals that I worked hard to complete.  My personal growth was pretty major as well, which has certainly not been easy. 

I hope that anyone and everyone that is making any resolutions or goals all the success in achieving them.  Happy New Year!