Can This Be Over?

Like everything.  Everything be over. 

It's super frustrating the way cases are basically exploding in Texas, I've been in "lockdown" since March, only going out for essentials, which sums up to going to the grocery store or Costco.  Once I went to Wal-Mart, JoAnn's and I went to Barnes and Noble.  SINCE MARCH!  What the fuck, this totally sucks!

Now it's hot as Lucifer's balls outside and cases are even worse!  I'm not going to demand anything, but I really need a haircut.  I need a massage (therapeutic, not for funzies or relaxation).  I want to go on a date (and get fucked, lets be honest).  I would FUCKING LOVE to go swimming, go to the gym and have access to all the weights, OMFG!!  I want to spend a Saturday going to estate sales, thrift store book hauling, and spend a Sunday morning looking at EVERYFUCKINGTHING available to buy at TJ Maxx. 

I want to go to the library.  Our city library is open for curbside pickup and the book drop is open, but people don't have to return the books they've had since like late February until September, which sucks because there are new releases I would like a physical copy to read, but I have to wait.  I do have a Kindle, but I have library books on there that are expired that I am not done yet (so why do I need more books? I don't know, I just need to be overwhelmed with choice right now okay!?).

I don't really care for dining out, but that would be great, and I would love to go to the movies.  This is peak movie time in Texas because it is so fucking hot, and seeing whatever shitty action movie is out is a nice cool treat. 

I guess I am saving money or whatever, but ugh. Speaking of money, I did not get that job I applied for and I'm disappointed.  I mean, I figured it would be a thanks, but no thanks because it took so long, but supposedly our PM was going to talk to recruiters about trying to prioritize our department going to other departments since layoffs are imminent.  Can't just give preferential treatment, but I met the preferred qualifications and I believe I should have been at least given the courtesy of an interview.  Oh well, onwards to the next position I guess. 

And my last update, I am now 36 books into my 50 book challenge! I set a goal of 10 books this month, so far I've officially finished 4 books in July.  And I have 2 I am currently reading, and an audiobook queued up to start tomorrow.  I've started to think about if I am enjoying reading all these books or if I'm just pursuing a pointless number at this point.  I think that's because the last 2 books I read were duds.  It's just about time to move to classics because I cannot take another horrible novel that is being hyped as something worth reading. 

Oh wait, just kidding, last update.  Still pending on my graduate admissions for social work.  Apparently my bachelor's transcripts did not include my graduation date, so I had to upload my actual degree cert. I just did that today, so I hope I hear something soon.  Maybe that would be some good news in these dark hot times.  Good news in a sadistic way I think though.