Goings Ons

So many things going on right now it seems.  Ch-ch-ch-changes. 

Miles was offered a job at UCSD. That was about a month ago, he is leaving next week, after Independence Day. 

Bathroom renovation is still going on. This is week 3.  Part of it is our fault for not having stuff ordered.  But also the guys doing the job for kind of procrastinating and being lazy.  Today the main guy is laying all the tile on the walls, it looks really good.  The whole room was gutted, and we replaced wood that had been moldy and rotted.  I think this was a good project to do, and having a modern en suite for the master bedroom is going to add some real value to the house. 

I'm anxious about things with Miles leaving, mostly expenses, especially being summer and the power bill being SKY HIGH, and the house still feeling hot.  Honestly it's fucking ridiculous.  I love this house, but damn can it get expensive. I really need to buy myself a portable air conditioner for my bedroom because it stays 80 degrees in there.  It's the farthest from the HVAC, and we've had the A/C guy come in to check it out, but there is really nothing more they can do.  We did learn with this remodel that our house is not insulated... Boooooo.  I would like to have spray insulation done on the attic ceiling, but with the rest of the house not insulated, I'm not sure it would help much.  It's something to look into later in the year.

I do have Miles' room listed for rent already, with a move in date for the end of July.  I've only had 1 person email me, and I'm suspicious that they were spam.  Oh well.  If it doesn't rent, then Miles and I are splitting the mortgage payment 50/50.  This is something we have talked about at length, and of course, something we are drawing up a contract for.  Or I should say, that I am drawing up a contract for.  Of course. 

The thing I am dreading the most is that Miles has flip flopped and will be taking Waffles with him.  I am really upset about it.  Granted, Miles is the one that technically adopted him, but fuck that.  He spends the most time with me cuddling and hanging out.  He will sleep in Miles bed, but I think that's just because he had been sleeping in that bed since we brought him home.  Plus, he will occasionally come over to my room, like last night.  I woke up in the middle of the night to find him cuddled up partially under my pillow.  I love him so much, this is so heartbreaking. 

I'm really upset to think that Miso could be affected by this.  The last thing I want is for him to act out because he misses his buddy.  The cats are bonded, so I really think this is a dick move for Miles to make.  I would be more than happy to go down to the shelter and adopt a new cat for him, there are plenty here that need saving.  Miles is not interested in that.  I will probably adopt another cat soon, once they leave.  Miso likes having a feline friend, and I want him to stay social.  I'm happy at the thought of saving another cat, but Waffles is not replaceable. 

Other than feels of loneliness, stress or anxiety over money, and of course any depression that will be coming my way once I can finally grieve the end of our relationship, I am so beyond ready for this.  I mean, I am ready to tackle the above feelings as well, but I want to move on with my life.  I was talking to my therapist and told her that I will be occupying my time with doing things around the house, painting Miles' old room, and maybe even the living room and hallways, repairing little things, cleaning and organizing...

I also get to take a shopping trip to get new items for my kitchen.  I'm really excited about this.  However, to keep myself from going this weekend, I have told myself that I must clean out everything and reline the shelves.  I should also find a witch store to buy some sage to burn and cleanse the house.  And yes, I'm totally going to do that.  Clean this old energy and bad relationship vibes from these walls, I BANISH THEEEEEE!