Stupid Galore

Miles doesn't take this virus seriously.  You'd think as a nurse, he would be more cautious and diligent, but he doesn't seem to give a fuck.  Yesterday I asked him what are your thoughts about everything going on?

Miles: "Well, I think it's a shitty situation, but inevitable"
Moi: "What do you mean inevitable, that it doesn't matter and you will get it anyway?"
Miles: "Yeah pretty much"

So, look, maybe I wouldn't have boiled over at this point if he wasn't standing there like a sulky teenager, with his arms kind of just dangling there, as if I were reprimanding him for something, with a "I don't care about anything" demeanor.  But fuck you. 

Moi: "So, I get that it is highly likely that you will become infected by a patient, but here's the thing, you still need to give a shit because I live here too.  And you don't have to care about my attitude or feelings about what's going on, and you don't even need to care if I am feeling well or not, but what you do have to care about is whether or not you are endangering me, that is a fucking problem"
Miles: "I know, and I know you are anxious about all this, but you are just not going to see me outwardly anxious"
Moi: "Well, maybe if you had gotten pneumonia instead of me, you'd feel differently, because I am fucking terrified of being that sick again" lets also add being that on top of being sick, having a partner that is a shitty caretaker, like WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU EVEN A NURSE BECAUSE YOU SUCK AT IT!!!!!

Like when they implemented the lockdown he was adamant about going to the store to get pens.  A specific pen, yes, the kind you write with, for charting because the place he works still uses paper charting (like, wtf, so 2008 btw).  He had to go get pens, he just needed a specific point pen.  FUCK OUTTA HERE!!!  That is so fucking dumb!  PENS!!  FUCKING PENS!!  I gave him a pen I had that met his criteria, but he still went to the store, because, I don't know, just can't have one.  And he never gave me that pen back.  Then that first lockdown weekend he wanted to go to Home Depot to get a doormat.  THAT IS NOT AN ESSENTIAL ITEM AND YOU ARE ENDANGERING THE POOR PEOPLE THAT HAVE TO WORK FOR SHITTY MINIMUM WAGE, YET ARE CONSIDERED ESSENTIAL!!! 

It's not cool to not give a shit.  I asked if he gets sick if he plans on isolating in his room and he kind of looked off to the side with a look like absolutely not, but oh, he will. 

When I tell my friends his fucking attitude about this, they are like "how is he even a nurse?!?!" he got into it for the drugs, not actually for patient care.  Lets be real.  He's a fucking addict that cares nothing for anyone but himself.  I wish I had known what this meant when he told me, I could have saved myself a lot of grief. 

Stupid is not even a strong enough word y'all.