>^^<, >\\’>

Does that figure to catfish? Idk, thought I’d hop on the Grimes/Elon Musk train and be a fucking weirdo.

So update, not a catfish!!! He’s as handsome as the pictures he’s sent me and oooooh I like it!!

Although I did think that he would brush off FaceTiming again, and then I would have to be like "sorry dude, that's not okay!" and stand up for myself, but I'm glad that didn't happen.  Not so much the standing up for myself, but not getting brushed off.  Like, I want to know now that you can make time for me, even if its a quick 10 minute FaceTime call.  I don't feel like I ask for a lot, but if what I ask for is reasonable, there shouldn't be a problem. 

Asking for things in a relationship, or having needs and placing boundaries around those needs getting met, or should I say, not getting met, is something very new to me.  Also, very important work that I have to do.  I think the reason I miss Robin Hood so much, besides whatever connection we had, was that I stood up for what I wanted instead of just going along with things like I usually do.

I would like to think I do this more regularly, but I don't--or didn't until then.  I think part of me believes I "missed out" on being happy with him because I had needs; it sounds fucking ridiculous.  But like who am I to *demand* things?

This is a trauma response.  I learned not to have needs because they were consistently not met, or met with rejection, anger, or punishment. 

Anyway, don't want to get into that.  The positive is that it's something I'm aware of and working on. 

But the other positive is that I'm not being catfished, and if the powers that be are on my side, they will let the dick drought end!!!!